I always have been.
I always will be.
I have struggled with not feeling like I was enough for most of my life.
Recently, at a funeral that I attended, the preacher talked about how tragic it was that the person who died spent his life feeling like he wasn't enough. He said that this was the real tragedy. It came to me at that point that there are so many people walking around feeling like they are not enough and I am on a mission to let everyone know that they are enough - that they always were enough - that they always will be enough!
As I work through issues and events that I have experienced over my life, I am really learning that I am enough. I am really embracing that I was always enough and that I will always be enough - just as I am. This realization has come with years of hard work and self-discovery through counseling and personal growth. I believe that everyone has their own unique issues to work through. I also believe that we need to experience tough times to be able to really appreciate the good times!
Friday, I went and got a tattoo to serve as a constant reminder to me about this - that I am enough. I have several tattoos that I have gotten over the years and I love them. They are beautiful artwork to me. I recognize that they aren't the healthiest thing for me due to ingredients in the dye; however, I also realize that I need to have balance in my life. So, if I want to have a tattoo, I am sure to cleanse a little more over the next while to assist my body is releasing those toxins. I already eat pretty clean and as much organic and local food as I can and I exercise 6 days a week. The food and exercise, too, assists my body in being able to repair quickly. My last tattoo was over 20 years ago!
Here's a picture of the finished product from yesterday. I love how it looks so far and am excited to add a beautiful water colour underneath it in the near future. I have already chosen it, but won't spoil the surprise for you. It is very fitting and I'm excited to see them together! I will definitely post another picture of the final product once it is all complete.
Part of the reason that I chose to do this Bikini Fitness Competition journey is to prove to myself that I can do it - and if I am honest, a little part of me will have more reinforcement that I am enough when I accomplish this goal. Each time that I work through adversity and challenge, it teaches me how strong and powerful I really am!
Friday morning began with my usual meditation and personal growth reading as well as my HIIT workout. It was a challenging one - the same one I did last Friday with the crunches and get ups in it. Getting up from laying down with no hands is a major feat to do and is a great workout in itself! It is also a measurement of how fit you are as I learned during my nutritional studies and my personal trainer studies in the past. Add in some other moves with those get ups and I can tell you I was pretty tired at the end of my 20 minute workout! I still have to do a bit of a rock to get the momentum to get up, but I do it - over and over again for that 20 minute workout!
One thing that keeps me going and pushing through my tough workouts is recognizing that being able to exercise is a celebration of my body and all that it can do!
A quote that I saw recently on the Internet sums it all up for me:
Exercise is a celebration of what your body can do, not a punishment for what you are!
I had 2 protein shakes - one for breakfast before my tattoo and one for lunch after my tattoo. My friend, Tracy, told me that I was glowing yesterday! That's from all the wonderful nutrition that I pour into my body each and every day! When we give our body what it needs, it can perform in the beautiful way that it is meant to!
Speaking of good food, for dinner, I had some roasted chicken over a tossed salad with homemade dressing. It was so good!
That's the drive that we are all born with ... and I am so glad that it is alive and well in Ethan - and I intend to work to keep that drive alive! It's also the drive that keeps me powering through. Have you lost your drive? I'd love to help you regain that zest for life! It is the greatest thing that I have gotten back in the last few years!