I had a superfood protein shake for breakfast when I got up.
Then I got to work on my posts from the weekend as I didn't fit them into my busy schedule. I had my second meal of the day which was the last of the curried goat, broccoli and cauliflower, and some pasta with lentils in it.
After my workout I had another superfood protein shake with Recover in it.
Ethan and I then played table hockey together - he beat me. While playing, I ate my fourth meal of the day which was chicken, steamed pea pods, and rice with butter on it. I will be glad when the chicken we have is used up as I have been having way too much of it lately and am noticing water retention because of it. I think I have mentioned before that I am mildly allergic to chicken. I can eat it once every 4 days, but have been having it way more than that lately!
I made us a tea. My lesson for today was "Never try to impress other, try to impress yourself and find happiness within you." This is a great reminder that happiness is a choice and that it comes from within me and not from external sources. The issue with happiness coming from external sources is that if those sources are removed then my happiness goes away. When my happiness comes from within then I am in control of it. I get to choose. This is not to say that I do not feel sad or other emotions. I have been working on sitting fully with my emotions and truly feeling them because I have learned that I tend to either stuff my emotions and cover them up with positive ones that I do not actually feel or I dampen them so that they are not as strong as I am actually feeling them. What this reminds me is not to dwell in the other emotions and allow them to take over. It reminds me to make the choice to be happy again once I have processed other emotions that come up.
I listened to an interview today on happiness and really liked the ideas that were presented. I share them here. I do not recall who the interview was with, but know that these ideas are not mine, but that I do like them and live by most of them as I am sure you have seen from previous posts!
1. See yourself as valuable.
2. Own your own happiness - it comes from within.
3. Challenge your own story - you are writing it so write it differently. Change the way that you talk to yourself.
4. Enjoy the journey - celebrate each day that you get to get up and strive towards your goals (I call them outcomes) - celebrate all along the way not just at the destination. There is joy in the process.
5. Make relationships count. The most important relationship is with self. it is hard to like someone when they don't like themselves. Make relationships with others count. It is hard to be fruitful by yourself.
6. Balance work with play. If you are all work then you risk burn out and being miserable. If you are all play then you risk starving!
It is through my #youAreEnough mission that I work to see myself as valuable. I can tell you that I spent a large portion of my life believing that I was not worthy and that I was a bother. Through counselling I have determined where I believe that root of this belief came from and I see that the little girl who made this decision didn't have the cognitive ability to discern that it wasn't about her! I work now to tell that little girl each day that she is enough, that she does matter, and that she is not a bother! It is through this work and personal growth that I learn new skills and become the best version of me instead of fixing myself. It is also through this mission that I work to spread the word to the World so that each person knows that they are enough just as they are!
At one point in my life I was quite miserable. I didn't like my job, I didn't like my life, and I am sad to say, I didn't like myself. Those who knew me at that time can definitely define when that time was. I was not nice to be around and I didn't want to be around myself! I am grateful that I started on a path of learning a better way and that I have found a community of people who support me in my growth to becoming the best version of me. I can look myself in the eye in the mirror now and tell myself that I love myself and I mean it! What a wonderful feeling that is! Can you do that? I invite you to give it a try and if you don't believe it, spend time each day in front of the mirror doing this until you do believe it! I am grateful that I make the choice to be happy. Yes, crappy things still happen in my life, but I choose to respond instead of react now and each time that I practice my new way of being, it gets easier.
I have been challenging my story by being very conscious of my language that I use with myself. When I begin to feel overwhelm, I look at my thoughts and realize that they are negative. I work to challenge those thoughts by changing my language. I get to be home full time and I get to make Ethan's lunch every day. I get to drive him to school each day and pick him up. I get to instead of I have to. See what changing your language does for you!
I would like to invite you to see life as a constant journey and that the only destination is when we pass on. I invite you to set outcomes for yourself and to view yourself as being at a certain point on the journey to that outcome. I then invite you to set new outcomes and to then work towards those. The biggest outcome that I invite you to change your mindset on is health. It is not a destination. It is a journey to be worked on each and every day. Everyone has time to look after themselves if it is a priority to them. Set an appointment each day with yourself to exercise. You are worth it and your family will thank you when you are here for years to come - and when you are in the best health of your life in those high numbers of age!
I invite you to take on your relationship with yourself through reading personal growth books. I love to learn who I am at the core. I love to find out what makes me tick. I especially love to learn about my blind spots because then I am aware of them. I can catch them more quickly and begin to change my habits that aren't serving me to ones that serve me better! I also invite you to take on your relationships with others! I would definitely rather be living in a tent with my loved ones than in a mansion by myself! That being said, I believe that you can have both health and wealth and that you ultimately need both. If you forget your health to chase wealth then you will end up spending that wealth to get back your health. Health is wealth and is also the foundation for everything including relationships and wealth.
Balancing work with play is something that I continually strive to find. I tend to work till overwhelm and then go into a cocoon to nurse myself back. I am aware of this and so work to change that habit to better ones that serve me. One of these habits is setting up a schedule and then adjusting it as I need to. Another is stopping what I am doing to sit down and play with Ethan at whatever he chooses. Today was an example of that. I needed to get things done, but when he asked me to play hockey with him I did. Is table hockey my favourite? Nope! Did I really have other things that I would like to get done instead of playing board games? Yes! Part of wanting to be at home with Ethan full time is so that I can spend as much time with him as possible. So I remind myself of this and choose to play with him instead sometimes. He appreciates the extra time and so do I!
We got ready for bed and read a chapter in The Land of Stories and then headed to bed to get a good sleep for our early morning hockey practice on Tuesday.